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The nurse came back with my toast and water and I eat that while I waited for them to come back. I asked the nurse to bring in four chairs for them all, as they would be here a while and they might as well sit down, she went off and brought back four chairs.

Four chairs later and my parents came in the room and sat down. My parents on my left side and Isabella and Rebecca on my right side. As my parents came in I could see they were still wearing yesterday’s clothes, they must of came with me in the ambulance and been here all night unlike Isabella and Rebecca who were wearing clean school uniform, they must need to leave for school soon. I hope they stay with me, I hate hospitals and I need them to distract me from thinking about being in here. My mum came up to hug me, I could tell from her smudged mascara and puffy red eyes she has been crying a lot. My dad looked at me with the same strict blank look as he always did, but I felt so guilty even though it’s not my fault I ended up in this hospital, it’s their fault for dropping the divorce on me!

My mum is the first to speak, “Anna I so glad you’re ok, and you had us so worried.” She then looks at my dad as if to say he was worried as well but I doubt that.

I respond with “Yeah, sorry, but I am okay. When did the doctor say? When can I get out of here? I really just want to go home and see Alice and Aaron, they must be worried.”

My mum takes a minute to think before she responds, “Well apparently they need to run a few more tests and then we can sign you up for therapy, apparently they have an amazing therapist here, and then when we get your prescription then you can leave.”

“Wait…So you think I will be home by the time Aaron and Alice get back from school? And wait therapy? I don’t need therapy or drugs I just need you and dad to not get a stupid divorce and we can be a family again!” I am started to get very frustrated as I speak.

My mum picks up my frustration, and then she looks over at Rebecca and Isabella, and says “girls I think it’s time you should get to school,Isabella your mum is down stairs ready to give you both a lift, say goodbye you might be able to see her after school.”

Isabella and Rebecca come and give me a hug and I whisper “please stay” but then Isabella says I think you just need your parents right now, we have to get to school, I am sorry!” I tell her “It’s okay, I wish you could stay, come by mine after school? And we can hang out in the den! I need you guys! I love you!” They walk out the door.

There is an awkward silence until my mum speaks “Anna you need therapy, and medication. And as for me and your father, we have to get a divorce, you know that, but you could help by not being so frustrated at us and help us by looking after Alice and Aaron they need you. They need you to get better.”

I don’t see any point in arguing anymore. I will always be frustrated at them for what they are doing. She is right, Aaron and Alice need me. I need to get better for them.

The doctor comes in and says “ We need to run a couple of routine tests, why don’t you two go get some food from the canteen.”  My parents leave without saying a word.

The doctor started taking a blood sample and asked me “what did I think caused the panic attack?”

I didn’t really want to answer, My head was already freaked out as I hate hospitals, they creep me out, always have ever since I was little.

I thought should give him a response, “well my parents, they are.. they are getting a divorce, and I saw how upset it made Alice and Aaron, I couldn’t be upset I have to be strong for them, but when my best friend came to visit me I knew it was ok for them to see me upset and I just exploded. I felt so horrible, I couldn’t control it. “

There was a moment of silence as I wiped away a couple of tears from eye.

I then asked him “do you think I can stop this happening again? The panic attacks I mean, I don’t think I can stop the divorce.”

He responded with “Well, with therapy and medication I think they will stop eventually. You can’t rush these things. As for the divorce, that’s your parents’ choice and if they think that is best for your family. I don’t think you can do anything about that.”

“I have to try,” I said in my determined but polite voice. I decided I didn’t want to talk about the divorce any more, as the doctor finished taking a blood sample I asked “when do you think I can get out of here? I really wanna get home and see my little brother and sister”

“I think you will be out by the end of the day, we just need to get this blood sent to the lab, and when that come back clear in a few hours, you parents can sign the discharge papers and you can be sent home.”

“Really!?” that great thanks Doctor,” I said as he walked out the room.

I got out my laptop which Isabella and Rebecca brought down for me with some of my things like a change of clean clothes, I couldn’t wait to get changed later into my own clothes instead the itchy hospital gown. I put my laptop on the table and pulled it towards my bed and got comfy. I opened it up and turned some itunes music on, and went on social media, luckily the hospital had free internet. I saw on my Facebook that Isabella and Rebecca were messaging me from school, they would be in Form now and must be bored and snuck there phones in,  it read “ Hey Anna, hope you ok, don’t worry school is wayyyy boring without you, we miss you, we will come meet you after school at yours. How is everything there? We miss you, sending love!!” I feel blessed to have them, they will never know how much I appreciate them. I respond with “everything is wayyyy boring here too, the doctor says I can go home soon, I can’t wait as this hospital gown and sheet are really itchy, haha! I can’t wait to see you two later and Alice and Aaron! My parents are down stairs getting coffee, I still so frustrated at them for dropping the d word, just dying of boredom send help haha wish you were here, miss you guys xx” I noticed they went offline, Mrs Kate must of caught them on their phones, they won’t get it back till end of the day. I turn of my music and head to YouTube were I know I can waste a few hours just catching up with videos from my favourite vloggers, so I can pass the time and relax and take my mind off being in hospital as much as I can.

My mum comes in my room and I realised I asleep while watching Joe Sugg’s latest video of him pranking his roommate Casper. The doctors did warn me the new medication could make me very tired for a few days until my body gets use to it. I close my laptop screen. My first thought when I woke up was nope this isn’t a bad dream this is real.

My mum is the first to speak “Hey Anna, turns out the doctor wants to keep you in for a few days now, it turns out your blood test came back and they found it very abnormal and they want to run some more tests to find out why, so you will have to stay here for a few days. Dad is going to collect Aaron and Alice from school and bring some more things down so you can some toiletries and clothes and things do you want any things specific bringing?”

I have only just woken up and this must be a bad dream “I thought I was able to go home, I don’t need to stay I am fine, I just want to go home and see Aaron and Alice!” I am frustrated and my mum can tell this from my voice.

“Anna if the doctors think you need to stay here for a few days then you have to, I am your mum and you have to as I say.” As for Aaron and Alice, your dad is about to get them from school and he will go get some things from home for you then he is bringing Alice and Aaron here to see you for a while. I will ask again, do you want anything specific from home?”

I can hear my mum is irritated by me right now, I don’t see much point in arguing. “Fine, and I don’t think so just could he bring my laptop charger and my book from my bedside table and my glasses please.”

“that’s fine I will get him to bring those things I will ring him in a minute. I am going to speak to the doctor, I will back when your dad is back with Aaron and Alice. Ok?”

She is expecting me to be ok but I hate hospitals I don’t know how I will serve days in this place. I just respond with “fine whatever.”

My mum leaves.

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To Be Continued

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