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The nurse comes in and tells me she is detaching my IV drip however I have to keep the need in my arm in case the doctors need to put medication in my system.

The nurse quickly does her job, writes it on my chart on the end of my bed and leaves the room.

I need to ring Rebecca and Isabella to let them know I am staying here for a few days, I check the time and its 3:40 they will only just be walking down to the school gates. I ring them and they answer straight away, I hear they are with some of our class mates. I tell them that I still suck here and I need to see them so they tell me that they are heading straight here. They then put me on speakerphone with some of my class mates in the background and they all shout “we miss you Anna get well soon” I glad they care, I miss them, I would rather be at school then this place! That brings a smile to my face knowing they miss me, I miss them, I even miss boring school assemblies!

They hang up and they text me that they are on their way, while I wait for them and Aaron and Alice, I open my laptop and turn on my music, just loud enough so I can hear it but quiet enough so I am careful as it’s a hospital and their might be people sleeping. I log on to my blog and start writing, it’s only a quick blog post to let them know I am in hospital, I will explain everything soon, I am okay and I am not sure if I will be able to upload much this week, but I will keep them updated on my twitter. I upload that, and put the link on twitter. I scroll through twitter and retweet some funny tweets from Tom Fletcher. I turn of my music and close my laptop as it has low charge.

I then go into the bathroom and get changed into some clothes that Isabella and Rebecca brought me in the bag this morning. I look through it and find they packed my favourite clothes. I put on my comfiest jeans, and my favourite harry potter t-shirt. I take out yesterday’s plait and brush through my mane of a hair. I put it back in a neater plait. I then find my deodorant and give that a quick spray, I then grab my pack of face wipes and grab one and clean my face. I head back to my room, feeling a little bit more like a human. I tidy up, flatting the covers down, and make myself look presentable, as much as I can ill in a hospital. I tidy my clothes and things away.

Before I know it, I see my mum and dad arriving. I get up and walk out my door and see Aaron and Alice so I run up and hug them. While my parents are still talking to the doctor, we head into my room and get comfy as we can on my bed. Aaron shows me a painting he did in school, it was a get well soon card and he got all his class to sign it, as best as they could at aged 7 which I find even more adorable.  I hug him as tight as could and kiss his head and say “thanks little bro, I will put it right here on my bedside table and think of you every time I see it.”  He asks me why I am in hospital in the first place, I reply with “ well last night when you and Alice were in bed I become unwell and I have to stay here for a few days while the doctors can fix me.” I try and make it sound simple and not scary.

Aaron says “but why a few days, when I was here when I fell of the trampoline and I broke my arm they just put a on it cast and I was home in a few hours. Can’t they do that with you?”

“Well with you it was easy as you broke your arm but as it’s not arm that is broken, it’s my head. They have to try and fix inside my head.”

Aaron says “but how are they going to fix inside your head, they bandage that up?”

Bless his innocent young brain! I love the way he thinks about things! I giggle and reply with “well no suppose not, but they are fixing it with medicines, but don’t worry I will be fine and home in just a few days, don’t worry!” I kiss his innocent head.

I look towards Alice who seems very quiet which isn’t like her, I can tell she has thing on her mind. “Aaron why don’t you go get mum and dad to show you where the vending machine is and get some snacks I think I need to speak to Alice for a minute, as sisters. I hug him and he heads out, he won’t be long as the vending machine is only round the corner.

 I turn to Alice “What the matter? You never this quiet. You thinking about what mum and dad said last night? Remember you can talk to me about anything!”

She finally speaks, “Yeah and you’re in hospital, and all they have done on the way to see you was argue.”

“Oh you finally speak, thought our cat got your tongue!” I joke with her and she giggles I say “ and nice to see your little giggle, and as for mum and dad try not to worry to much, okay? They are just going through a hard time right now, it probably doesn’t help me ending up here, but not matter what happens, me and Aaron will always be here for you, and we will always be okay as we will look after each other. I will always be looking out for and Aaron as I am your big sister, and as long as we have each other we will be okay. Okay?” I notice her face brightening up a little bit. “yeah I suppose, I just wish you could be at home instead of here, I tried asking mum and dad about why your here but they won’t tell me. they just keep saying your ill and in hospital.”

“well they are very stressed and me being here is adding to that. but I am ill. last night when you and Aaron were in bed, Isabella and Rebecca came, we went up to the den as I needed them, as the divorce thing got me upset, and then when I was telling them about it, I had something called a panic attack, do you know what that is?” I looked at her she looked confused and I carried on explaining ” well it just meant my head got a bit messy and I couldn’t stop crying, I found it hard to breath and then that and the fact I hadn’t eaten my dinner meant I feel dizzy and fainted. I blacked out and woke up her this morning. but they say I am okay and it’s nothing to worry about. Then they said I could go home today but then my blood test came back with abnormal results so I have to stay here a few more days until they figured out why. I am sure it’s nothing to worry about. I feel fine.”

Alice looked worried “so because something wrong with your blood you have to stay here a few days? and that panic attack things sounds horrid!” she looks upset and hugs me. I tell her “it was but I am okay now, and you shouldn’t worry I will be home in a few days, and I promise we can just stay in the den eating junk food and watching whatever Disney films you like. until then you have to promise me you will look after Aaron for me okay? and look after yourself, I worry lots about you too!!!” I hug her and kiss her forehead.

She brightens up and says “okay I can do that don’t worry!!”

At this point Aaron comes back with some snacks, and we sit and eat the snacks while we talk about how their school day went. Aaron told me about how at break he and some of his friends pretended they were pirates which made me giggle. Alice told me how she spent most the day in lessons as she just joined the high school. She told me there was an explosion of tomatoes in the science lab, because of an experiment. I laughed so hard at that. Just as we finished eating out snacks, our parents came in the room.

My dad spoke first, “come on Aaron and Alice time to go home you still have homework to do before dinner time.”

“No dad please! I begged, “they only just got here, can’t they stay just a little longer? They could do their homework here with me ? I can help them with it , then you and mum can grab some coffee.”

“No Anna,say goodbye, you will see them tomorrow, we have to get home.” He snapped back in his stern voice.

“okay fine,” I hug Aaron, and kiss him on the head and tell him I love him. I give mum a hug. I ask if I can have a minute with Alice alone, sister to sister. My parents and Aaron leave the room.

I tell her “Don’t worry okay? I am only a phone call away, I will see you tomorrow, and remember what I said okay?-I am always here for you, you can talk to me about anything, and watch out and look after Aaron okay. I will be home in just a few days!!” I hug her tight.

she replies with “I just wish you could be home tonight. and yes I will look after Aaron, I wish I could stay here tonight and keep you company, I wish you could tell me one of your stories! I missed hearing them!”

Alice we know we can’t know we don’t have time you have to go home, but I promise when I get home in a few days I will tell you all the stories I can think of, I have plenty of time here to think of stories! I love you!!” I hug her tight and kiss her forehead.

“I love you too, more then anything, get well soon okay!” she says as she walks out the room.

I miss my little munchkins already!. Before I know it Rebecca and Isabella come bursting through the door screaming my name. The run up to me and hug me so tight I can barely breathe! I can tell they came straight from school as they are still wearing their uniforms, and they haven’t even taken their tie or blazers of yet. 

Rebecca is first to start speaking “OMG school was a bore without you!”

Isabella “I know, but you will never guess what?”

“What? What? I can’t guess, I am too excited!”

“In art class this morning, Mrs Bisby let us make you this” They pulled out a massive A3 card from their bag that read “GET WELL SOON!”

“Awww guys I love you so much!” I open it up and it has hundreds of signatures and nice messages from everyone in school.

“we got everyone to sign it, we went round school all day and made sure everyone signed it, we even got the lunch ladies to write something.”

“Aww you two are the best!” I start getting emotional and have to hug them. “But wait do people know why I ended up in hospital?”

Isabella reassured me “No.No don’t worry only me and Rebecca and the head teacher know what happened everyone else just thinks your very ill with an kidney infection. They don’t know real reason.  They won’t it will be our secret, they don’t have to know if you don’t want them to.”                                

“you two are honestly the best most amazing friends I could ever ask for! What would I ever have done without you both!” I hug them again feeling very blessed and emotional.

The doctor walks in the room.

He says “Anna we need to run a few more tests and give you another round of medication. Visiting hours are over you girls can come back in the morning she needs to rest.”

“Rebecca, we only just got here, but I suppose we should head off, we have lots of homework to do, speaking of, we picked up some of your homework and books so you don’t fall behind.” She then put down a massive pile of books on my table and I reply “why thanks you so considerate! Don’t I just I love homework” I say with a sarcastic tone.

Rebecca “your very welcome” she laughs.

Anyway we should be off, Izzy’s mum is waiting down stairs to take us home,”

They come and hug me. “Don’t worry you can always message us anytime you need us or even ring we will have our phones on us at all times, ring us if you need us, we are here for you!”

“You two are the best, missing you already!” They hug me again and walk out the door.

The doctor said “I am just taking a blood sample.” He took some blood through the needle that is already in my arm from the IV, then he said “ I am now just giving you some medication which will probably make you very tired as your body isn’t use to it but don’t worry that’s normal, it will help with your anxiety.” He said this as he attached an IV drip back up to the needle in my arm. He then asked “would you like any food or drink bringing?”

To be honest I don’t think I could eat I feel too anxious about being in a hospital but I know I should eat and keep my energy up. I replied “Yes please.” And he said the nurse would be bringing the food trolley around, in a few minutes. He then left the room. 

 He was right the new medication was making me feel really tired. I tired to stay awake for the food trolley at least as even though I was too anxious to eat, I had barely eaten anything since school lunch yesterday, as I didn’t eat my dinner due to the divorce thing, I had a piece of toast earlier but it was very burnt, I should eat, I needed to keep my energy up. Saying that after the doctor left I did feel a little bit hungry.

I decided to go on my laptop to distract me from thinking about being here and thinking of food.  I got out of bed, trying not to get all tangled in the IV drip and the pulse monitor cables. I pulled the table over the end of my bed and got as comfy as I could, even though I was stuck here and I so desperately wanted to be home, even though my parents were probably arguing still, I needed to be home, Aaron and Alice must be so scared and upset. I looked at the clock on my laptop and it was dinner time, they must be feeling so scared, they need me there.

I turned on my music, but only just so I could hear it, I didn’t want to disturb any patients in the other rooms near me. I then decided to look at the homework Isabella and Rebecca had brought me from school, I might as well try and keep up with my school work as best as I can. About half and hour later, I finished most of my homework they brought me, so I put my school books in my bag just as the nurse came in the room with the food trolley. She gave my tray and put down a drink of orange juice and left the room. I looked at my tray and the food actually looked nice, for hospital food that is. It was a bowl of macaroni cheese with a piece of garlic bread and then a piece of cheesecake for desert. I was pretty pleased with this as this is my favourite meal. It won’t taste as good as what my mum makes but that is as it is hospital food. I switched my music off, and turned to YouTube to catch up for the day. I turned on Tom Fletcher’s latest vlog which I need would cheer me up. I got out my knife and fork from the napkin and started eating my food. Just as the vlog finished I finished eating. 

I then tidied up my dinner tray and got comfy under the covers.

After I caught up on YouTube videos for the day, I switched over to Netflix to watch my favourite show Once Upon a Time. I felt so tired from the medication.  I was feeling vey homesick at this point, I got my phone, paused my laptop and rang home. They might just be finishing dinner and I might be able to speak Aaron and Alice before they got to sleep. It rang, and rang eventually my mum answered.  I started tearing up I was getting very home sick at this point.

The conversation went like: “hello mum it’s me Anna,”

“Oh Anna, How are you? You ok?”

“Yes I am ok just feeling very homesick,”

“oh sweetie, don’t worry its only for a few days, you will be home soon,” I felt from her voice she was hiding something. She continued “Are they treating you ok? Have you eaten anything?”

“yes they okay here they seem to be really nice and yes I just had some food it was macaroni cheese, garlic bread and some cheesecake. Are Aaron and Alice still awake? Can I speak with them please?”

“Yes they are and of course you can speak with them if you like they are in the kitchen helping your dad tidy up from dinner I will call them.” I hear her shout them to the phone, She then said “they are here now, I will put them on in a second, and Anna don’t worry okay, its just or a few day and we all love you very much, good night sweeties I love you,”

“love you too mum,” she went off the phone and put Aaron and Alice on the phone.

 Aaron spoke first “ Anna…Anna..” I could tell he was very excited to talk to me but also very sleepy as it’s almost his bedtime. 

He got interrupted by Alice “Anna please hurry up and get better, mum and dad haven’t stopped arguing since we left you earlier.” 

“I know, I sorry, but try not to think about that okay? I tell you what take the phone upstairs with you and get comfy in Aarons bed and I will tell you a story to help you get to sleep.

I could hear them walking up stairs to Aaron’s room,  “we are ready” I hear Aaron scream down the phone since it was on speakerphone. 

I told them a story that involved a wizard, some fairies,   and a magical land called Arendalle. As I finished up, I could hear Alice tucking Aaron in and I told her to give him a goodnight cuddle and kiss from me. “Good night Aaron, I said as I hear Alice walking out of his room to go to bed herself. I told her “Goodnight you little munchkin , I love you, don’t worry okay, everything will be fine.” I wished her good night and told I love her and as she went to bed I hung up the phone.  

I then started feeling extremely tired. I text Isabella and Rebecca to see what they were doing but there was no reply I presumed they were having dinner at this time and their parents are strict on no phones at the dinner table. 

I turned my laptop off and closed the screen as I felt really tired, must be the new medication, it was only just gone 7pm, I normally don’t got to sleep until 10 pm. I didn’t even feel like I had enough energy to go get changed into my PJs, so I fell asleep in my clothes I was already wearing.

When I woke up and every part of me ached especially my head. I looked around the room and this wasn’t the room I remember falling asleep in. My room I fell asleep in was very bright and white and had double doors and I wasn’t in that room anymore. Something didn’t fell right. I was so confused why did I fall asleep in one room and wake up in a complete different one? 

I tried to get up but I felt really dizzy, must be another side affect from the medication. I walked around my room, luckily I could see they brought my things with me. I rummaged in my bag and found my laptop and phone. I quickly got out my phone and rang Isabella and Rebecca, I needed to speak to them. I rang and they didn’t pick up, but then I checked the time and it was 9:30 am they must be in school no wonder they didn’t answer. I put my phone in my pocket and walked around, me head was starting to panic. What do I do?

 Before I knew it, a nurse came the room.

I asked her “excuse me, I just woke up and I am really confused, how come I went to sleep in one room and now I am here? Where am I? ”

“Hi Anna, well, you parents agreed that it was best if you stay here for a while, this is the psychiatric unit.”

“wooooahh! The psych unit? But why?”

“I think that’s a conversation you need to have with your parents. I think they are just speaking doctor and then they are coming to see you.” She got my chart off my bed and wrote something down and put my chart back on the end of my bed. She then left the room.

I then was freaking out. Why would my parents ever think I needed to stay in a psych unit?

Before I knew it my parents walked in my room.  I was now frustrated and angry.

“mum what the hell why did I wake up in a psych unit?”

“Anna calm down please. Me and your dad consulted your doctor and he thinks as well as your anxiety he thinks you have something called Border Line Personality disorder and he suggested we admit you here.”

“WHAT? Borderline personality disorder? I don’t have whatever that is! I am just a teenager who is upset because you’re getting a stupid divorce and me, Alice and Aaron are upset and you don’t care and I am stuck here and none understands or is listening to me! I don’t need to be here! I am fine! At this point I start throwing my stuff in my bag so I can try and get out of here.

“Anna..Calm down.. listen to me I am your Mother and I say you have to stay here you can’t leave without a parents signing you out.” She used her stern I am parents so you have to do as I say voice. I hate it when she does this.

“No that not fair and no I will not calm down! You can’t do this! You can’t keep me here against my will!!!”

“Anna, I can I am your mother, You have to be here and you can’t leave without me or your dad letting you. You need help.”

“NO, I don’t need help I just need to get out of here!” I start walking down the hallway trying to leave m parents follow me. “It’s all your fault anyway for getting a stupid divorce and breaking our family apart.”

“Anna. Calm down. This is nothing to do with me and your dad. You have anxiety and a border line personality disorder. They are mental health conditions and you need help. We are your parents and you have to listen to us!”

 “I will not calm down and you can’t keep me here!!!”

 They then called the nurse over. I was held down and injects with some drug.

 Two hours later I woke up on my bed.

They sedated me. They can’t keep me here against my will.

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To be Continued