This post is all sparked off a Instagram story that @beckiejbrown posted about a day ago which I have screen-grabbed so you can read the caption.

Firstly I really admire beckiejbrown, have been following her youtube and social media for many years and highly relate to her content as a fellow late diagnosed autistic of which we will be mentioning and talking about.

This story as soon as I read it, it sparked so many feelings within me, primarily feeling like someone finally understands me but how sad it is that we both experience this same feeling. This sparked feelings so much that I had to write this post immediately and for reference its currently 3am.

I know this feeling every day of being surrounded by the world and having people all around you and feeling stranded all alone. I often refer to a metaphor I found in the TV series geek girl, of feeling like a polar bear in the amazon jungle.

I often question if this isolation is self-inflicted. Am I feeling alone because I tend to wear my headphones and blast music or audio books because the world is too loud and overwhelming, or am I alone because I am destined to be on my own.

Beckie then goes on to talk about how she is just wanting to feel loved romantically and say to someone in public ‘hey can we go out and fall in love’ but obviously doesn’t do this as it isn’t socially accepted.

This also hit really hard to home as at the age of 27, I have been in two serious relationships both of which lasted approximately 4 months. Yes my love life is a joke but that’s another conversation for later. I totally agree with Beckie that I just wish I could say Hi This is me can we go out, and scream I just want to feel loved. But unfortunately this wouldn’t go over well with the actual world.

My main summary of Beckie’s post was feeling lonely as well but also sadness that two people feel lonely and want connection but we live in a world where everyone is focused on there phones and is disconnected.

This is my post to the world that if you are feeling lonely like me, because you are autistic or whatever the reason, just say hi in the comment section below or send me a message on my Instagram @dyslexicbooknerd with Hi and the code word GALAXY (just a fun code word so I know you have come from this post directly) and I can make a fun discord community or something, so that we can all start to feel a little bit less lonely and find connection.

now this is out of my system, I am going to sleep as it’s now 3:35 am, goodnight world.