Once we easily downed our mochas and felt ready to face the day we decided we should go get some real breakfast in the canteen before having to head for group therapy. I change my shoes out of my comfy slippers and decide on my favourite purple sparkly converse, they always help me feel confident…
Masking is exhausting.
Masking takes so much energy. I never know what my mask is and what is the real me. I worked for a few hours and I have two versions of a mask . One is for when I am with customers and I am doing my customer service smile and little bit on auto pilot…
Hell Found Me Part 19
I wake up a little dazed with with a warm feeling in my stomach that I have the greatest of friends who stayed until very late last night. I pick the note up that reads “sorry didn’t want to wake you, you were so deep asleep, we finally got kicked out late when nurse meanie…
Hell Found Me Part 18
I set a timer on my phone for 15 mins so I didn’t stress about how long they were going to be and so I didn’t watch the clock. I went into my bathroom to freshen up and got changed into a pair of comfy pj bottoms with disney on them and a loose tee…
Hell Found Me Part 16
“What happened? How am I in my room?” I say all jumbled. “Hi Anna, you had a panic attack that caused you to blackout and faint. Willow notified us, we moved you to your bedroom for monitoring until you recovered and not to worry, your parents have been notified and are coming by later when…
I wish autism had an off button
I really like autism to not be there for a day. Just one single day. I see others and Ii just wish I could be social like them. What sparked this post and idea is how I went to my Christmas staff party a few nights ago (yes hospitality workers do their parties after Christmas…
My Hopes and Goals for 2026
Hello everyone, hope you all had a merry Christmas and overall a good holiday season for whatever you do celebrate! Since it's the end of 2025 and 2026 is happening in the next 24 hours from writing this, it's always a good time for reflection and new goals. These are not resolutions as such as…
Being surrounded by people and still feel alone.
This post is all sparked off a Instagram story that @beckiejbrown posted about a day ago which I have screen-grabbed so you can read the caption. credit@beckiejbrown Firstly I really admire beckiejbrown, have been following her youtube and social media for many years and highly relate to her content as a fellow late diagnosed autistic…
Why it is so important to receive a diagnosis as an adult?
Recently a good friend of mine received a diagnosis after 4 years of waiting. I won't say whom or what their diagnosis was as that is their private information, however I am happy they received a diagnosis they have been waiting a long time for. This then created an interesting conversation around being diagnosised and…
I love and hate being autistic.
I have two minds about being autistic, I both love and hate it. I hate it as it makes my life so unnecessarily hard. I cannot understand social situations like everyone else, I always feel like I am on the outside and I never understand what is happening. It's like a blur of people talking…